Through the woodland we walked hand in hand heard the rustle of a baby squirrel in the undergrowth saw crows pecking at the rich pickings in the damp soil and magpies going silently about their business
and in the open field a dog fetching a ball only for it to be thrown again All nature falls yes but life bounces back the hollow trunk decaying down into the soil will rise again in fresh limbs that will proudly withstand the rain and the wind nature is par excellence a survivor and love is in our nature
Beneath these lives we lead beneath the surface the truth of ourselves the depths that are hidden the strengths and the fragilities that we display when we enter into relationships the text of ourselves that we offer to the other all the versions of ourselves that have gone before refined and tailored for present company all that we lived and all that we loved way back in the present of those past times the curve that brought learning and sometimes forgetfulness an easing of the burden of our histories
To have loved in innocence to have survived the thrills of childhood and adolescence to be where we are to day where you are today where I am today self-contained bodies brimming with love
I was born under my stars you were born under yours and though we share the same universe there are still silences between us that stretch out across space my quietness and yours imponderable as cracked autumn leaves tumble through the galaxy
If we dig deep enough we will hit upon pockets of the past your childhood and mine our parents now long gone dreams that are ripe for resurrection the lust for love
In Spitalfields market I bought black leather gloves to keep my fingers warm those fingers that know your body so well
When you blush your blood vessels fill with desire I can read your face like the back of my hand Never forget that we share the same minerals nor that the shadows that trailed behind us on the edges of the Grand Canal will be there for all eternity I own the light in your eyes just as you own the light in mine : we are a constellation of two our nights know no darkness
I love the early morning air the way it hits the lungs and tells me how good it is to be alive and to be walking the streets around Shoreditch where Shakespeare once performed in the early hours just before the offices open It’s one of the most alive places on the planet full of the real buzz of life people who have come from their beds with fresh energy ready to engage with the day with the win-some lose-some open mind you get from a good night’s sleep
I love the bustle and the jostle of people prepared to make a go of it I love the sound of friendship in the air as people greet or part and go on their way to work I love the simple affections that bind us all together and the deep love in my heart
The common English oaks cast a towering shadow over the platform at Barnehurst station the pedunculate oaks with their sessile lobed spirally-arranged leaves twisted into rhyme
Time has again gone up in smoke as autumn has drained their lush green leaves to the colour of tobacco Clad in thick fuses of ivy from head to toe these trees are doomed as their lifeblood is slowly sucked away No glorious spreading crown for these emaciated specimens no monstrous girth— their acorns litter the ground cracked and crushed under relentless waves of commuter feet
Time feeds on time a parasite that will one day bring these trees crashing down to the earth and so these rugged branches will rot back into the soil from which they once emerged ash to ash dust to dust But the minerals will rise again the resurrection of the molecule is not an article of faith : oak leaves are indeed hands reaching out to future hands Wallace
Home in the early hours along the lonely path from the railway station the temperature has fallen the dew is descending and the grass is furring up with a delicate frost
and I remember his hands as he felt his way through Brahms felt his way through his feelings tentative and yet decided: the instruments of passion at his fingertips melody which he caresses as the lover that lies within gently phrasing his affections
Leaning in he extracts a cascade a stream of notes picked from the calm domestic world that surrounds him the rhythm shifts but the identity doesn’t change He has nothing to reveal he is the revelation on a walk through the woods here a rose there a robin an eagle soaring above a stream of crystal clear water He has become part of the world narrative a rich fragment a billowing love song to life and to natural beauty : here children play you can hear their laughter as they race down the hill here love goes hand in hand surges in moments of ecstasy and subsides into peace : the piano has become a carapace he bears the weight on his shoulders—a shell a habitat an exuberant meteorological space
Lost within a score he leans back adjusts his cuffs and shakes his wrists to loosen the remaining notes that lie within him Faith and hope and charity the variegated satisfactions of a domestic universe an impassioned partnership in which he has dissolved into Brahms a marriage and a resurrection
and so the frost falls and the night sleeps on until lovers refreshed rise from each other’s arms into the new day
John Lyons
The poem above is based on notes taken during a brilliant performance of Brahms’ Three Intermezzos Opus 11 given by Evgeny Kissin at the Barbican theatre on 10 March 2016.
Life script, John Lyons (20 x 20 cm, oil on canvas)
Why would I not ?
Of course I take it personally whether you love me or not whether you betray me or not whether you fail me or fail to understand me or not I bear the soul of a private man ploughing by day the furrows of city streets in which squirrels run rampant and gold is amassed in steely towers of greed
So I live and die for words for unsolicited acts of tenderness for the beauty of light on water for the delicacy of moonlight that pierces the night sky Of course I take our lives seriously your life and mine : and tell me why would I not ?
Sea of colour, John Lyons (40 x 40 cm, oil on canvas)
The primeval sea
The primeval sea awash with colour the underbelly of creation whence all life whence all love
See how the light shimmers on the shifting surface restless ocean restless life colours that coalesce wave upon wave here where the sun sets and rises and where the surf pounds on the shore so mimicking the passionate pant of our human breath