The chain of memory one step after another from daybreak to dusk in the cold or the sweltering heat the past barely behind us we immersed in its consequences but constantly edging forward to cover or so we hope new ground to free ourselves from all that would tie us down or hold us back
Love tells us that there are no repetitions that each moment is sacred each kiss or caress devotional and that tenderness is sometimes a gift of parentage We live the fact of our existence yet pass our lives in search of the true innocent inner self a cosmos unto ourselves with our own laws and trusted properties and it takes quite a mind quite a heart to grasp it in its totality we who dwell in the known country struggle with a muddle of necessary imperfections of missed goals and opportunities of failures and remorse taking comfort only from the pity of love from the hand and lip of another much like us a brother or a sister a poetic companion sharing in our humanity moved by the same rose soothed by the same birdsong driven by the same desires
In all modesty it’s about the words the words that you lay down day in day out in verse the poetry that comes with your breathing or from your breath the particulars of life that you choose to salute those events and those feelings that remain when all else has been subtracted what is of importance
As the master said learn your distances know your intimacies confuse neither
the rose you dared to pick the love you dared to live the intensity of it all the here and now of it that construct of space within time that you dared to create for there is risk in all things that animate and chance would be a fine thing if it existed the question is do you lead a life or are you led by it who is running the show who decides whether you live or you die in truth to yourself
Those hands on the wall of the cave in Santa Cruz Argentina waving to us from 9000 years ago The silhouettes created by blowing paint through bone-made pipes The warmth of these gestures as if to say we were here and we salute you those of you who are to come
In the beginning nothing : no colour no light no movement no space just boundless darkness though even then there was nowhere for the darkness to be
There was no warmth no cold no life no kiss no love nothing just an aching emptiness infinitely empty even of emptiness even of heartache
And then there was light and with it came art and the explosion of colour throughout the cosmos irremediable darkness banished forever quite simply put to death by the act of creation
What sunrise gives us each day is sky limitless space in which to cast our dreams as far as the eye can see
No longer enclosed in darkness the imagination can run riot all things being possible
even now the birds have changed their tune and are singing a song they learnt on Broadway
Blue sky more profound than any ocean and it takes only a mind to navigate it a mind and a brave heart scudding along on waves of poetry
the hawthorn will soon be in flower and roses will follow on from daffodils nests will fill and field populations will swell with new birth
and the city will pick up its feet and dance late into the night each day a promise each night a fulfillment and your breath and your pulse will race to the end of love’s sweet palpitation
Here in this stormy canvas are elements of my life the deep earth colours from which I emerged with streaks of green and yellow and orange and a crimson patch of the blood I have given to my art and poetry : out of raw sienna and umber a narrative of lamp black and Prussian blue and swathes of white that represent steadfast love and hope in the midst unseasonal chaos
What I love about this detail from a recent canvas is the way the colours in the foreground appear to be floating on water or on ice : it could be a pond or a stretch of canal frozen over such as on Thursday up by Ladbroke Grove when I saw two swans that were wondering where to go with ice all around them and seemingly no way out
I can’t wait for spring to come for the bitterness of this winter to be over to see flowers in the fields and red roses in bloom in the garden with fresh lavender in the borders and to hear the buzz of bees doing what they know best collecting the fresh nectar that one day soon I will spread on a slice of warm toast and thank God that I’m still alive to enjoy it