You’ll be aware that I do and don’t love you
since there are two modes to life,
the word is a wing of silence,
and there’s a cold side to fire.
I love you in beginning to love you
to reengage in what is infinite
and so as never to stop loving you:
that’s why I still don’t love you.
I do and don’t love you as though I held
in my hands the keys to happiness
and an uncertain fate of unhappiness.
My love has two lives with which to love you,
that’s why I do love you when I don’t
and why I do love you when I do too.
From One Hundred Love Sonnets
Translation by John Lyons